God is not surprised

Psalms 139
1 O LORD, thou hast searched me, and known me.
2 Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.
3 Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.
4 For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether.
5 Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.
7 Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?
8 If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.
9 If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;
10 Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.
11 If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.
12 Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.
13 For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb.
14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.
17 How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!
18 If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.
19 Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men.
20 For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain.
21 Do not I hate them, O LORD, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee?
22 I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:
24 And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

My doctor has been trying to get me to take medication for pre-diabetes for several years now. I resisted because my highest level was 126.

Last month, I was at 145 with an A1C of 8.5. I started taking ONE of the pills, although she said take two a day.

About two weeks ago, I started having frequent bathroom trips, and was always thirsty. I figured it was a bug, and would pass.

Sunday night, my brother stopped by our church on his way home from the Smokies. I told him about my symptoms. He suggested I check my blood sugar.

I tested the next morning and I was at 388. I took my medicine, scheduled a Dr's appt, and went to work.

I told my employer about my appt, and they sent me home. They said I cannot drive until I get my blood sugar under control. They want to see an A1C under 8.

That means no income for my family. I get my last check on Friday.

I have no idea what to do. I'm not sure I can draw unemployment. My short-term disability doesn't start until the 15th day off work, and it will only be 45% of my usual pay, if I can even draw it for this reason.

So, my life is full of uncertainties, right now. But isn't it always?

I had an A1C done on Tuesday. The nurse couldn't tell me the results. I have to see the doctor to get them, but she did say it was higher than before.

I am eating better, taking my meds, and I even went walking, today. Although my fasting level was 252, my two hour after lunch level was 177. That 177 is the lowest I have seen it recently. I'm praying it remains that low.

My manager said he is trying to get the company doctor to let me return to work if my level is under 200 when I go to the Dr on Monday. This is what I need everyone to pray for.

God knew this was happening. I am very scared about what this will mean, financially, but I know God has a plan.